A year has passed

And I guess I should have some kind of explination, or giving a big charade about it.
I can just say that the last year has been a mind and eyes opening year. It did make me understand things about me, and my surronding.
I got to understand that I'm not as good in some things that I thought, and there is a long way to become or get where I want to be.
It took me long time, but over the months, an determination has awoken and a real idea and plan is worked on. And that feels exsiting now. I know where I need to head, and I will do the best I can to do it.


I'm not where I want to be, I've got so much more to learn and figure out. But I'm on a real way and I just need to continue with my plan.

And here I'm gonna show that I'm someone. 

3 weeks

We've been here for 3 weeks, and it has been very nice. I've totally been disconected and barley been "online" and it has been really calming. No rush to check emails, no need to be connected on all the socal medias that excist. Just a three week holiday and it feels like such a needed thing.
I've worked in the garden, helping out to make a terrace outside bigger( we did it last year as well, yes you remember correct) painted cages for rabbits. Been fixing rooms inside and cleaning.

Just a real holiday, fantastic.

The best so far has been a teather we went on. Last saturday I went with some on my family and it was the best show I've ever seen. Such a joy and wonderful thing to see. It was uplifting, wonderful and left me in a good spirit.

 

yes it was in a barn! they have refurbished a barn, to a real teather, just fantastic!

SwedenSweden

So we're in Sweden now and had some few days of holiday. The sun is shining bright in the sky and it's really warm.
That doesn't happen here to often.
I've been here for some few days, and I can really feel how inspiration and a creative mind really wakens up. The nature, sun, blue sky, small gravel dirt paths, and animals puts me in a state of creativity. I find it just to much easier to do things in that inviroment.

It's calm, no noise, no disturbens. peaceful. Things that are, for me, needs that need to be filled to be creative.

Not feeling to well

Today I just feel like shit actually. The head is heavy, my ears are aching, as does my head. My eyes feel like they will pop.
No not such a good day actually.
I just finished iron a mountain of laundry, and tomorrow I have the same. I like to iron though.
It gives me such a nice feeling seeing the wrinkles smooth out. And I do like to have a mountain to iron, as I like the feeling, when I see the mountain get smaller and smaller and disperse.

I can't get my packing in order, I keep postpone it, and that is so not like me. I usually pack like 2 weeks before hand.
So bit weird.

I think i will just watch some project runway, cut out the pieces for a skirt and then head to bed.

  

Last sunday

Today is my last Sunday here, it's bit sad but at the same time bit exciting. I know that this half year will be for the best, that it will come so muhc good from it. I mean finishing school is rather basic.
I've decided to really just dedicate this half year to myself. I've got parents that can help out bit with the girl so I can get bit more time to just work, work out, be out and get energy.

Today though I woke up good, but after hour or so, the hardest head ache hit me. Had to be in bed for some hour. Just lying, couldn't even move. Very strange.
My deaer husband called me, to treat me for lunch. He is such a sweetie :)

Now will be cleaning of the flat, want tt hand it over to him in perfect state ;)

Beautiful friends

we've just gotten back from evening with friends. We got to see the friends new flat. Was such a nice calm evening. 
I learnt that the guinea pig is part of the rodent family, that the oldest tree is 5000 years and that there is a drink called agua de valencia, or something like that. 

I'm not sure if I will see them again before I go, and it makes me somewhat sad. But it was a great evening, with great food and so nice company. 
To my lovely friends, you are amazing!

ReNewed by: MANKA

Last year I bought these. Swedish leather clogs. Nice just as they are, but wanted to make them pop more. 

I panted the stripe on top green, and the metal clips black. 

Glued on some old bookmarks, flowers! Let it dry, and then many many many coats of varnish. 

And I got myself some really personal and one of a kind clogs. 

At the same time I was doing this, my little girl was fixing as well. I had some white high heels, that was just white. 
I had some fabric paint, so have that to her, and a brush. 
And Voila! 

The first pair, I can't use though. Had them yesterday, but will most probably not use again. They are to small now a days. They didn't shrink after giving birth :(

Dining out

                   I met up with my husband yesterday, as I am leaving soon for such a long time, we where dining out. 

Favourite place, close to us, they know us and whey are really really nice there. 

Cafe Palanda!

Yummy as always! 

Well, I've kinda started some new thinking and I do not really drink alcohol anymore. I do not feel good from it, and it doesn't matter how little or much I drink I always feel so tired the day after. 

Why is it so? I was in bed at 00.00 so slept 7 hours, but feels like 4, why?

Because I wanted to have a toast in some bubbly wine, as I will miss my husband birthday, our anniversary, some jobs things that might happen. 

So we split some bubbly wine, and I didn't have much, and today I just feel tired. 

Don't get it. Can someone tell me why?! 

But I can really recommend Palanda. Love that place! 

Thursday evening 11/7/2013

wow I'm bit confused, for some reason I thought it was 2011. Strange..

Today was a rather "brainless" day. Some organization stuff, for the time in sweden, throwing things etc. I did finnish a sewing project. That was good. 

I received a mail today, possibly the most beautiful I ever received. I was tearing up of it, and it left me with a feeling of happiness. This 5 years here have really got me some beautiful experiences. I'm so happy about that. 

Now I am meeting up with my man. I want to spend as much time with him as possible. Will be so strange not to have him around every day.  

Thursday 11/7/2011

It's Thursday today, in a week I'm in Sweden. It such a strange feeling. 
Yesterday i got the surprise that the internet was gone, as well as the TV. 
It turns out that internet is not a free service, you apparently need to pay for it... :D

Today will be a organization day, will start some packing. My idea is not to bring so much clothes actually, mostly just fabrics so I'm forced to make them.. Lets see how that goes...
so will go through all drawers and cupboards we have, to see whats in them and what I need. 

Not to interesting to be totally honest.
I will miss both my husbands birthday and our anniversary when I'm gone, so we're going for early birthday dinner for him. 
Need a gift. Please advise me! I am the worst when coming to buying gifts   

Prague

Oh Prague, you cheeky cheek. You dress yourself in your best dress and showing yourself from your best side. 

The summer and sun, the greenery and happy people. 

I can't understand that it's just one week more here. And you are just showing off now. Teasing me and showing up the best you have. Prague is over for this time, and I couldn't leave in a worse moment. The city is lovely right now. It's green and peaceful. A metropolitan city, but calm and stressfree. it would have been so much better if you could just have kept you in the dress you had some weeks ago. grey, rainy and sad. 

Prague, I've been living here for 5 years, and I have never regretted coming here. I've grown so much as a person and got to know so many lovely persons, so many beautiful places. It has been 5 years of beauty. 

I love you. 

Leather Clog

I couldn't sleep last night. I turned and turned and moved and tried to breath. Nothing did it. I surfed around internet and watch some tv shows. Nothing did it. I felt aggravated and just annoyed. Of what I didn't really know. Then it hit me! 

Year ago, when I returned form Sweden I bought a pair of proper leather clogs. My mother asked for what in the world would I do with those? Wear them of course. They are cool! And so I did. I used them, in and out, in the city and to the park. And haven't really seen anyone else with it. 

So. Back to why I was annoyed. 

The last days when I surfed internet, checking in, whats out there I've seen them. Over and over and over again. In cool fashion blogs and brands. 

The basic leather clog. And for some god knows why reason this really got me annoyed. Annoyed that other people find them nice as well, because to be honest, there isn't really anything cool about them. And I felt that by using these, I could be totally safe from being IN. I wanted to be of! 

I know it's a silly thing. I can't understand why it provoked me so much. can't understand it. 

Silly me. 

Getting creative!

I love doing creative things with my little girl. I find creativity being very important and I want her to get to know and see and choose from different things. 

Her father is all about giving her mind challenging games and toys, teaching her numbers and things. 

I like to get creative with her. Make her paint, or we do a decoration together or we make a painting. So as well as her creative side as her intellectual side is active. 

Potatoe stamps. So easy to do, just cud the potato in half, and press a baking shape into it. There you have a stamp!

A empty t-shirt. 

Color and brushes, we also used some fabric pencils that her aunt had given her. The t-shirt was from her aunt as well actually.

The it's just to get started. to paint, and press and do what ever you feel like. I helped her, showing how the stamps worked. And she was brilliant in using them. 

So end result!

I think that she did so well :)

I had a dream

This night I had such a real dream. It was about a swedish tv personality. We where buddies, like the best. You know the type that is almost attached to each other. We build a house together, we traveled together. Went on festivals. 

I woke up and almost thought that this person is my friend. And this is so weird no. So many people I know about, and had dreams about that really has no clue about me. And never will. It's a slightly weird thought I think. I dreamt about someone, that never will have to clue who I am. And so many times it has happened! 

Well well, enough about that. 

Took me long time to write this short text. Sometimes it feels like I am loosing my languages. I feel that I get very confused, and stutter on the words, and totally forget how to spell. And this is both swedish, english and spanish. do not really like that. 

Any ideas of how to learn the name of colors to my child? I've done the repeating thing, but she doesn't seem to get it. She gets that it is different colors, she can put the same colors togehter but not the name. I want the names! How should I do?

Tired

I don't get, that I can be so tired of doing nothing. 

I could go to sleep now. But can't just right now. Some dinner, and then some rearrange the flat. 

My husband will stay in the flat, for this time we are gone but we'll have some roommate, and rearranging the flat for them to have it good. 

Study instead of child room, second bedroom instead of sewing room etc. 

Spanish day

By coincidence the day yesterday was the spanish day. 

Lunch we had Tortilla. Delicious! 

We danced, and the girl dressed up in her flamenco dress. 

we ate jamon serrano and chorizo. 

We didn't even think about it, that we had just spanish things all day. 

Plan all changed

When the little girl's Abuela was here, she gave a fantastic gift. Some plain t-shirts for the little one, and colors that you can paint on fabric. So she could do her own t-shirts. 

I loved it, crafty and fun. 

So that was one of the plans today, another was to play with ther friend as we are leaving soon. 

As well I was planing to clean out the flat, make a study room for my husband instead of the little girls room. 

Instead of all this I went a quicky to a friends place to open up for some guests, returned to the flat and went to bed. 

I slept 3 hours straight. 

Wow. All plans just changed, lets try for it tomorrow instead! 

Project Catwalk

I love Project Runway. It's the best show ever, it's a reality show but the only thing they do is design, design, design. 

I've seen many episodes, and liked many many of the designers. 

Wicked clothes and people. SEE IT. 

But please do not see Project catwalk. It's the Brittish version and it sucks, sucks, SUCKS. 

Please do not see it. 

I'm so happy that they only made three seasons. How a show about design can be so terrible. 

What a pity

Got the blues

We had abuela and primo over for a visit. 10 days they stayed with us and we've done it all. Castle, bridge, old town, all houses, zoo, pool, shopping malls. 

Everything. 

The little girl been totally happy, always someone being there for her. 

This morning, they left early early. Didn't have the time even to say a proper good bye. 

And it all left me with feeling little blue. We had such a good time here all of us, so it was weird having a empty house. 

Some food and hopefully I will be bit better.

17 days left

I'm leaving this country. 

At least for half year. 

Czech Republic and Prague has been my home for the last 5 years. During these 5 years, did I evolved in many ways. I've really got  a clear vision of what I want to do in life, and how I want it to be. 

A lot due to the fact I got a baby, that got me lot of spare time to get things going, and a understanding husband that was ok with me not returning to a office job. 

But now it's coming to a end for now. 

I will return to Sweden, and my home town for about 6 months. I'm  going there to do some studies, as I haven't learned the language  here I'll do it home in Sweden. 

I will take another course in pattern construction, as well as a sketching course. As these things I really need to improve, and feel that I can get better on my own anymore with this. 

My little baby girl will go with me, and we're leaving mmy husband here. Was terribly afraid about that in the begining of the decision, but now it's fine. 6 months are nothing, and I'll come here and he'll come here. And there is always SKYPE. 

I will see it as six months, on devoting on myself. Evolve, and get a bigger plan over life. 

From being rather sad about this, leaving my friends and family I am getting excited. 

I will learn so much new things!